Doubts from 368 Days Ago

An unfinished draft from exactly 368 days ago.

If anything, law school has taught me to doubt. I guess that’s not necessarily a bad thing but the irresolute chunk of me (and believe me when I say that this chunk makes up about 90% of who I am) wasn’t exactly looking forward to learning it at this point in my life. If you think about it, doubt is the last thing I, as a fresh college graduate and a struggling law student, would need. It’s tough enough being surrounded by people who already have clear-cut plans set out for them and by them, especially those already working their way to their freaking dreams. Inspiring, yes but it just makes me uneasy most of the time. To not have those things yourself, to be clueless about what you really want in life is an entirely different kind of tough. It’s the kind that catches up with you every chance it gets, and when it does, the feeling takes so long to shake off (but you try to shake it off anyway). At least that’s what I do. I procrastinate.

 

You doubt yourself.

 

You doubt if you want it bad enough, or even at all.

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Vogue

I have no idea who Robert Jeffrey is, what he does, or where he’s from. But what I do know is that he worships Madonna (or at least used to). I stumbled upon this insanely charming video while I was back-reading on my Facebook newsfeed. The link was posted by one of my favorite college professors, Sir Chong, and Like-d by Madame Inton, another favorite professor, so I knew I just had to see it.

NOW YOU HAVE TO SEE IT! FOUR MINUTES OF PURE AWESOMENESS

How adorable was he?

PS. Make this go viral!

Video Description.

I performed to MADONNA’s “VOGUE” in the Summer of 1991 when my parents took me to Hampton Beach Casino in Hampton Beach, New Hampshire. A business in the casino at the time gave tourists the chance to lip-synch to their favorite pop songs in front of a blue screen background, and I was lucky enough to partake that summer.

In honor of the twentieth anniversary of MADONNA’s “TRUTH OR DARE” and in celebration of MADONNA’s upcoming “W.E.”, here is my nine year old self paying tribute to the woman who changed my life and continues to inspire me just as much today as twenty years ago.

My Baguio Weekend!

**I wanted this to be a photo blog entry but I just had to share this: If you’re going to Baguio, make sure you drop by Kaffee Klatsch (where it is exactly, I am not sure just look for it, ask around!). The place was too beautiful for my digital camera (thus the sucky pictures). It’s a coffee shop that opens only in the evening and it features local acoustic acts. I was kinda bummed out when I found out that it was a coffee shop because I was hoping to get some (alcoholic) drinks with my friends, but I wasn’t disappointed. I ordered for their house specialty Klatsch Cup, a stronger version of Cafe Mocha, and boy was it delicious!!!

Thank you Michelle, Angel, Nikka, Meg, and Len for an awesome weekend! :D

Holy Week for Me

I was browsing through one of my favorite sites, My Modern Met, when I saw this dazing photo by Adam Taylor. The photo is just too beautiful, I couldn’t help but save it on my laptop. But the reason I’m blogging about it now isn’t merely its loveliness. I wanted to share this photo because of the impact it had on me, and I’m hoping other people out there could experience it too.

When I look at the man in the photo, it seems like he’s asking me so many questions. Questions that I should be asking myself. Questions that I should be answering myself. Questions I just never bothered to ask myself. Questions I’ve been trying to dodge. I may not be spending ‘Holy Week’ the way most Christians and Catholics would spend it (since I’m not a Catholic anymore), praying and visiting different churches (okay, so I may be visiting churches with my family because they’re Catholics). But thanks to this photo, I am reminded there’s something else that I can do (perhaps something I should do) this Holy Week. I am reminded that I can use the time to, well, mull over things.

Praying and visiting churches may not be in the list of my agenda for Holy Week but reflecting on the past choices I’ve made and contemplating on my future definitely will be. Questions that I should be asking myself. Questions that I should be answering myself. Questions I just never bothered to ask myself. Questions I’ve been trying to dodge. You have them all too, I’m pretty sure of that. Perhaps you can do the same. Contemplate.

The Day I Turned into a UP Alumnus

Wearing a Sablay and saying the oath felt awesome! :) Congratulations to the 2011 graduates of the College of Arts and Sciences most especially to my dear OrCom batchmates! I miss you guys already!